My Husband Arrives... FINALLY! ~ Part 11
I had another week left with drains, so we decided to drive to his brothers place 2 hours away in palm Desert for a few days and give my friend a break!
Well, that drive was hell for me, as that highway was so bumpy and he had to pull over several times, so I could take a break from it. I used my clothes from my suit case to make the ride more comfortable and had many OxyContin & Valium to help with the pain! Not a happy camper :(
All I did was lay with ice packs and barely moved. The pain was unbearable some times and I would just pop the drugs like candy... I couldn’t handle this pain by myself :(
I was burnt out mentally and physically and trying AGAIN to keep strong…and HIGH as a kite !
We finally arrived at our destination AMEN! I couldn’t wait for the couch to lay down my aching body from the bumpy 3 hour drive. My right side where I had my hematoma cauterized, it felt like my chest was melted on to my ribs! Definitely the worst pain I’ve experienced through all these surgeries. To have breast ice packs where my best friend! All I wanted was to get back home to my bed and heal. I just knew it was going to be awhile before I would feel better.
I SO badly wanted these annoying drains out of me and I was miserable inside! I tried hard to stay strong. This whole experience was difficult on my husband and when I look back, it was like a hurricane that tried to tear us apart :(
I still get emotional today, when I think back to what we both had to go through...my heart goes out to these poor women that are in my shoes RIGHT now :(