FINALLY, the Drains Came Out and I'm Allowed to Go Home! ~ Part 12
I took an oxycontin and valium before I boarded the plane home as my nerves were shot, thinking of this hematoma that could come back?!!!
My husband paid a nice lady that worked at the airport to wheel me through one of the busiest airports I’ve been to. There was NO way, that I could have even walked that whole route! I would have been back in emergency!
I arrived home on Mother’s day, 3 of the longest weeks ever. I started to notice my neck becoming more stiff, as my focus was not on my stiff neck after the semi-truck rear ended my son and I. “ It was on the pain throughout my whole body I was focused on back then!” Once the MS like symptoms and burning left my body, I knew something wasn’t right with my neck?
Over the next several weeks, I was trying hard to wean myself off of the pharma medications. That last surgery felt like it did me in and I wasn’t healing as fast as I wanted to! I even started back on my higher CBD low thc cannabis oil (which I started almost 6 years ago for prevention) of cancer...except going through the breast implant illness, I could not take anything with THC, which would not help me at the time, when I was having panic attacks.
I was so happy that I could finally start taking it again, to help with inflammation and cancer, prevention and weaning myself off of the opiods, and for sleeping! I also did some breathing exercises (4/7/8 technique,) that helped me back then, while I was going through BII.
Anything to help with feelings of depression that was I was feeling… I wasn’t sleeping very well and I would have night terrors, which I’ve rarely ever had in my life. Everyday felt like a fight coming off the opiods. I feel the fentanyl and the many other pharma drugs over the 6 months, did something to my neurotransmitters;(
Everyday felt like a struggle....I would have to look at a photo of my granddaughter and watch my daughters snapchats of her most days. I couldn’t wait for the days that I could see her ..it was like a instant charge to my heart<3 The will to keep fighting through this darkness…
To this day, “I still I can’t even process what I’ve gone through and maybe never will. This traumatic experience the deception and corruption evil is… WAY BEYOND MY EMPATHIC HEART.”