All in Cancer

After Being So Desperate From Feeling So Sick I Wanted to Die...

In 2012 I decided I needed something more in my life than just being a wife and mother so I took up weight lifting and ultimately took on bodybuilding as a figure competitor.

I did that for 3 years and by 2015, after a ton of consideration and (what I thought was) a lot of research, I decided to get breast implants. I was hoping to feel more like a “woman”.

The grieving process sets in....

Grieving is a process…it comes at different times and sometimes its like a wave! Last year at this time, I was living in a body that was failing me and I so desperately needed help and answers which I wasn’t getting.

I have no idea how I have come through this when panic attacks started to take over. I knew, I had to go inward and deal with these emotions that were profoundly loud in my head. I remember hearing a saying from a few years back about pain that kept creeping into my mind, “pay attention inward now!”